Stitches of My Heart

Tag: mom

  • Break? Is there such a thing?

    Do you need a break? From what?

    I need to go to the beach, when it’s warmer of course, and sit back and close my eyes. I could only image the sun hitting my skin, and a breeze. Life is just chaotic sometimes. The hamster wheel I feel like I’m on the last few weeks, needs to slow down. The stress of two vehicles messed up at once. My middle daughter’s perfectly good car was hit, while she was sitting still- thankfully she wasn’t injuries. The oldest daughter’s car has had one thing after another between a heater cord, and a chain being broke by the engine. I go to finally cash an insurance check , from a well known insurance company so I can purchase another car, only to be treated like an outcast, and my bank wouldn’t cash it , Walmart wouldn’t cash it and I finally get it cashed after paying $218 fee.

    The folks that cashed it did everything but ask what color socks I was wearing to verify it was a good check.

    Fast Forward, whatever ever days I haven’t been working, I’ve been doing orientation for a new company that is taking over or ambulance service. Granted, they are 10x better, but I’m tired.

    Regular household chores, and online college courses- I’m ready for a 12 hour nap. I wouldn’t trade my title as mom for anything else. I love my kids, but I’m tired.

    Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

    Matthew 11:28

  • I Felt loved..

    Can you share a positive example of where you’ve felt loved?

    Love is a huge word, well a four letter word that carries so much weight. I have felt love from my kids, my mom, and my husband of course. My Yorkie, of all things, although an animal has expressed so much loyalty and love. He licks my hands and face and is always waiting to greet me when I walk through the door no matter how long I’m gone. When I’m sick, or don’t feel like getting out of bed,he won’t leave my side. The most positive way I have ever experienced Love though is when I read the Bible after asking God to open my heart and mind, to be able to understand it. When I fully understood the extent at which Jesus loved me, I get chills, and have never felt so much peace when I grasps that Jesus loved me so much and under no fine print will he change his mind. I am good enough, he didn’t stop to say, “I only love you, under these circumstances.” He was beaten, whipped and hung on a cross with nails in his hands and feet and had blood drain from His body. He could have easily got off the cross, and stopped it all. He could have said he wasn’t doing it, or that the pain was too much to bare, but he didn’t.

    When I let the devil tempt me, or distract me, he doesn’t leave, he just sits back and waits on me to realize I need him. When I gain a few pounds, or let myself go, it doesn’t change the way He loves me. When I let a cuss word slip, he doesn’t change his mind about loving me. If I’m poor or rich, it doesn’t matter to him, he’s got a mansion in Heaven for me when I get there.

    The other thing, He’s my father! You have your father here on earth, or you have someone that took part in your physical being , but that father might have let you down, he might not talk to you now, or hasn’t seen you in over a year, so you might question how a father’s love could be the representation of Jesus. Jesus won’t disappoint you, while you might not see him, you can see him in everything if you just look, you can talk to him,like you would a friend, no special words or request needed. He already knows what you need before you ask. No flaw or mistake is too big. You are more than enough.

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